情人还是朋友

你是情人还是朋友,还没勇气想得太多.

你的世界如此辽阔,我会在哪个角落.

为何你明明动了情却不敢靠近.

有缘,有缘就能期待明天.

My Little Darling

Wow.. It had been more than a week since I last post blog. This whole week really SUPER busy...
Not busy with other leisure activites but with my little darling, Emily.
Emily is my 4 years old patient. She is diagnosed with leukemia when she was born. I worked as a volunteer with the children cancer and Emily was my very first case. I remember when i first met Emily in hospital, she was 6 months old but she looked like she was only 3 months old... so fragile...so pea-sized. Needles, plasters and tubes could be found anywhere on her thin skin. There was no single area that could be spared from these. Really make ppl heart ache. WHy such a make a small child undergo this kind of tortures? She really go through a lot of suffering in these few years. Bone marrow transplant, Chemotherapy... whatever u can think of, she had already gone through.
Over these few years, we have upgraded from nurse-patient relationship to sister. I treated her as my 'little' sister.
She just celebrated her 4 years old last week. I dun know how many more birthdays is there for her to celebrate, 1 more year,2 more years,3 more years???......but i treat every moments or birthdays with Emily as her last day. To her, everyday is extra bouses but for me, the very least that I can do for her is to make her everyday "memorable".
Emily, WIsh u happy everyday......Jie Jie want to see your sweet smile everyday.

Puzzle?? Parcels??

2330hrs

TGIF !
I thought today i will be able to go to my class after work....Waiting to off work before start work.

Counting down hours by hours, minute by minute, second by second...Finally when i m ready to go, it poured so heavily !!! Sigh... %*£"@!!!

My Friday is gone......Go home to sleep liao, what to do......

Have been chatting with one of my new friend recently. We can chat from north to south, east to west...argue from front to back, left to right. Although not known long, but we seem like long-known friend. Even my friend will say ' You 2 always give me the same answers when I asked u 2 the same question' ! I can see the smoke coming out from my friend's nose when she mentioned these.Ha..ha..ha....Maybe this is what ppl called 'fate' or 'short-term' fate bah (my own invention, NO copyright given hor).

Many people will come in and out from our life everyday. Whether they are going to be our friends or enemies, we won't know.Only God will know. To me, they are passerby who'll stop-by at one stage of our life to left us some memories and become part of our puzzle that add on colours to my life.

What kind of puzzle he'll make up to?? I dun know... But there is one thing that I am sure is that

everyone will have to go through these parts and puzzles of life. No one can escape from this.

再见回忆.

0135hrs

不知道在另外世界的你，过的还好吗?

你以不在我身边有八年之久了，但是我对你的思念从未随时间而变淡。

你选择离 开,我知道这是你最不想要的结局。一直以来，你都把我当成你心目

中的小公主，万般疼爱。不让我受到一点伤害. 你总是把我的一切都放在你的第一位,

心里只想要我开心,快乐就好.你说要永远记住我的笑容因为那一刻的我是最漂亮的.

你知道在你不告而别的每一个的日子里,我的心有多痛呀. 我曾经那样疯狂的找

寻你的消息...但是回应我的永远都是冷冷的一句对不起.

在你离开我的第八百六十五天,我终于收到你的消息 - 你走了. 你这一次真的离开我了. 我再也不能依偎在你宽厚的肩膀看星星了,也在牵不到你温而有力的双手了. 你为了不让我伤心,你宁愿自己一个人受苦,自己跟病魔斗.你真的太傻了.....

今天是你的祭日,我也去看过你了. 你还是一样没变,一样的帅,一样是我心里的那个他.可是我变了. 我变的比以前开心.人们只会看到我的笑容. 眼泪或不开心是不会在我的脸上再找到,也不会再有人会看到了.

或许你早以喝了孟婆汤,不再记得我是谁. 但这也不重要了.只希望你会在你自己新的生命里,过的辛福开心.我也无所求了.

我会把你从我的记忆里一一删除,不会再出现在我的生活里了.我知道这也是你最想要我做的,不是吗?我和你的一切也不需要任何回忆....因为这一切以深深埋藏在我心最深处了.....

寂寞夜,想你的人还没睡,换不回让往事各纷飞,总在抬头时落泪,无处退彷惶的心仿佛被撕碎.最怕黑,最怕回忆上心扉,挥不去却又不知如何面对,梦以累爱疲惫对我是否你已无所谓.你的一切都让我心碎,却又无法再给我安慰,够重的誓言只能够随风吹,炙热的心如今已冷却.情到浓时人憔悴,爱到深处心不悔,念你忘你都不对,宁愿伤心自己背;不怨苍天不怨谁,人生不过梦一回,观看花开又花谢,却怕缘起又缘灭

http://http//58.215.127.248:94/L/2006241276835/22AE8901.wma

等待遇见

09062009, Tue, 2030hrs

我想我等我期待,未来却不能理智安排.阴天傍晚车窗外,未来有一个人在等待.

向左向右向前看,爱要拐几个弯才来.

一段情就能连起两个人的天.一条路就能让两个人刹那之间命运都改变.愿意相信就能相见.

两条平行线终有交汇的一天.

我遇见谁会有怎样的对白.我等的人他在多远的未来.

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Y nt excited?

Mon, 08062009, 2030hrs

Received a call from agency, I am being selected for the job. Oversea, pioneering, high pay job but why i am not at least happy with this news? Instead i m feeling heavy with it leh? What actually happen out there leh?

Thinking back the first day when i apply for this job to now, i m being selected for the job... the road to success, but why i m feeling this way now?

I know I won't be defeated by this small setback. I m able to stand up and find out where the problem lie. Kabateh!!!

Back to younger days...

07 May 2009, 0130am

Tired but enjoyable.

First impression is always misleading and surface... No wonder elderly would always urge that

communication is required for ppl to know each other better .

Misunderstanding always arises when ppl only ppl believe what they see, not what they feel. Maybe this is what ppl are lack of nowadays in this modern world where everything is fast. Just like cooking and eating maggie mee. FAST and EASY, but it get hungry easily too.....

Just like me, I also believe in what i see... Maybe that y i m feeling so insecure.

But where is the missing part of me?? Is he at my side yet or he is still at miles away...